recently deleted the old notes in the contact, found one very interesting ... After reading it I went through mixed feelings. Kind of like and I wrote, and it seemed to not remember what my ... Change over time, although I was always confident that has not changed one iota. And as thought before now does not make sense. Maybe someone will be curious, I decided not to throw away ...
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often thought about what you deserve and what is not. People say that they know you, and to In fact, they are not even aware how far from the truth. It seems to me that sometimes I do not understand herself, what I want, what to do in any given situation ... But it is necessary to postpone the feelings you once you understand things like this. I hate it when you talk about your dreams, or to argue about the future with all the inherent you seriously, and people genuinely laugh, because I do not see that the boundaries between your emotions ...
as he wants to you no one noticed, not assessed, not trying something to teach. I know I will never find a man in spirit, because I know that such is not there. There are others, but such as I have no ... Why do I need, someone, for some reason ... Why have I created, what is the purpose of my creator? He threw all the responsibility on me ... You're not even to the end is not yet ripe, but you have dumped on the arbitrariness Fate, you are not supplied with any experience or anything else, simply say that under the blows of reality and survival instinct to learn everything you own. And now you're an adult people live alone, you have friends, ideas, life and future. You know a lot, such as the fact that you can not rely on others, should not show emotions no one to protect you, you're no use to anyone ... And in those same minutes you lie down on the bed, zabivaeshsya into a corner and as a young child begins to feel sad or even cry, because I just want to mother ... Want to feel loved, you want to take care of you and gave you everything you want ... It was a veritable paradise. But now this will never happen ... You flew from the nest, or rather you pushed, although it was still ... All
what was previously disappeared, evaporated ... And no one cares ... Yes, and you though it's time to stop mayatsya these thoughts, because because they're stupid and useless ... Need to grow up ...
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